Hmnnn...errr How shall I put and say this. Ahh never mind me. And if ever you have read my posts here, just let it be OKAY? That's my true feelings,. my real self. Ah I hate pretentious, yes, but it depends on the person. And don't worry, that doesn't include my ONLINE friends and blah blah. What Im referring here are those people around me, what Im trying to say is that I don't like my environment here, its creepy. It gives me bad feelings all the time. Ah, you might hate me for misjudging others but whether believe it or not - I really can tell when they LIE or do PRETEND at ME. That's why I hate it, really hate it.
I'm strange, in some other way. WHY? Because even me myself sometimes can't understand MY OWN SELF at all! My what a difficult attitude. I wonder why. Those people around me seems a TOTAL stranger to me, why is it always like that? my........
I want a new beginning. Well, actually the only source of my strenght is the INTERNET. Because I could do lots and various things here, unlike in my usual daily routine - which is too boring that leads to stress. Not boring, but aw how should I say this. I hate myself - but I love myself. OMG which is the real thing!!! Im totally confused in this life of mine....Uhm, maybe...Im a narcissist, or AM I? nah....
Anyway, my LIFE starts here. Soshite, it will END here. I live in this world because this is the only way I could achieve a little bit happiness. WHY? Because I could watch my favorite singers, jrockers, animes, read manga and etc here! Ahhh ~ they're my life. Here I could Write stories, fanfics and gain OL friends (which I found much more trustworthy rather than my friends here...nah bcoz they're plastics! HOw awful it must be.)
I want a peaceful UNITED WORLD. Yeah, really. Who doesn't anyway? haha.
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